woolgathering

catching up

woah, hello bear! it sure has been a while since i've last written.

a little bit after my last post, i went on some back-to-back trips around asia. i spent a few days in seoul and about a week in bali. i did actually write about both of those trips with the intention of sharing them with all of you on here but for some reason i couldn't quite bring myself to publish it. i've never really written on any sort of platform before this, but i'm assuming that just like visual art, some writing is just meant to be kept to yourself.

with the only things i had written in that span of 4 weeks being private, i didn't really have much else to post. and the longer i went without posting, the harder it was to come back. this always happens to me. it was the exact same mindset i had with my art account on twitter and playing genshin impact, some hobbies of mine that i enjoy but had gone over a year of avoiding before running back.

my friends started letting me know that they missed seeing me post, which i greatly appreciateā€”it makes me happy to know i have people looking forward to what i have to say (because i really am just saying anything on here) but it feels like such a double edged sword because now i also know that people have... (for a lack of better way to express this sentiment) expectations?

i was crushed knowing i felt this way because this is the same feeling i get whenever i try sharing my art publicly and start gaining traction. it's a habit i'm trying to unlearn and although i think i've definitely improved in some areas, it's still something i struggle with.

i didn't want to wait another year again before i wrote my next blog post so hi, hello, i'm back before even more time passes! i hope you've all been well.

if you're curious, here's a short list of notable things i did during my time away from bear:

until next time! :)

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